May you rest in peace, Mum...

Specially for my late mum-in-law who passed away on 5th September 2008.

I was working at home as usual. And my husband was sleeping after a tiring night shift. I saw my bro-in-law was on MSN and knew he's at home. So I asked him if he is at home at not working, and he answered "Yes.. coz "Mak" is very ill". That what I call my mum-in-law 'Mak' which means 'Mother' in Malay. I felt uneasy and decided to give a tingle to their home and talked to Grandma for a while. She also mentioned that 'Mak' is very ill. However, I thought she was struggling with her pain as usual, so I did not expect that it was her last day of her life. When my husband and I arrived at their home at about 5.30pm, my father-in-law cried and say "Mak no more". I was so shocked and automatically burst to tears, I quickly rushed to the room, saw her lying on her bed motionless with her eyes half opened. She must have wanting to see all her 3 sons who meant the world to her. But unfortunately my husband who was the eldest was not there. So I sadly told my husband 'Mak must have been waiting for you to come to see her but... it's too late'. I was really sad.. really really sad. I can't help thinking of her even at this moment while I'm typing this blog. I love her just like my own mum. She's a great person. Well-liked by anyone. She's one of the kindest mother to her 3 sons. Even though I'm with the family for only 2 years. I can see and feel how much she loved her 3 sons. And she loves me too. Mak.. I want you to know how much I love you. I will never forget how you showered your love to your one and only daughter-in-law... May you rest in peace Mak.. I love you.

To people out there, remember this... appreciate and love while you can..

Be Strong Mum!

I'm writing this blog specially for my mum-in-law. She has Cancer and it's already at the critical stage. I can't bear to see her suffer everyday fighting to live. She is a cheerful, kind, caring, loving, humble and hardworking person. Why must this happen to her? A kind soul. She is still young and yet to experience the life of being a grandma. I really missed her laughter, her powerful singing and her love for food. I wish I could do something to help her overcome this suffering. I wish for miracle. I wish she gets well soon. I love you mum! Be strong and fight!

If you are reading this blog, please help to pray for miracle. Thank you.

Feel free to post a comment. Appreciate it!

My Precious One

Jafni, my precious one. Having you in my life is one thing I have never regret. It's been a great experience to have you in my tummy for 9 months. I can still remember the moments when I was at the labour ward. Going through labour pain is no more a pain when I heard your little cry for the very first time. I can never forget how you learn to talk, your first word and that's "Mummy" (although it does not sound very clearly), stuggling to walk and run on your own, songs you learn to sing and dance to, first ride on the bicycle, your very first alphabets and numberings,... I can never forget all your growing up years. Although your growing up years were not with me all the time, I'm glad we are much closer now. You must always remember that you have 2 families who love you so much. Baba and Mama Ida, and Daddy and Mummy. Although Baba and me is no more together, I want you to know we will always care and love you, my son. I really look forward to next year. You will have your own room with your own stuff. I have promised myself I will take care of you and making sure you will be a well-manner, respectful successful man when you grow up. For now, I just want you to be obedient, study hard and pass your PSLE with flying colours. From the bottom of my heart, I love you, Jafni.

Happy 2nd Wedding Anniversary Darling

Today is the day which I have been waiting for. 26 August 2008. It's our 2nd Wedding Anniversary. Hmm.. did not get to blog about our 1st wedding anniversary. Let me recall how we celebrated our 1st. 26 August 2007.. think.. think.. oh ya.. think.. gosh forgotten! Ok nevermind, let that be just a "forgotten" moments.. how sad.. we are getting older and forget last years event. Today, my hubby took leave just to spend the day with me. As usual, I carried on with my daily work, and my hubby zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz till 3pm!!!!! Ok he's tired after a long night at his parent's place, taking care of his sick mum.. how sweet of him! How time flies, 2 years just gone like that, so much happy and sad memories. Feel like just got married yesterday. Met my hubby through my friend. Gosh.... at that moment, I feel that world belong just to the 2 of us.. eyes met and the hearts go.. oh my god.. "he goes: I want this lady" and "I goes: I want this man".. hahahaha... so drama! And yes, we dated for a year and got married.. Hmm.. I don't remember him kneeling down with roses and say.. "Will you marry me?".. We kinda start the engine and kick off! Today, we had nice lunch nearby our home.. "not really tastefully nice but cos it's our anniversary so everything seems nice".. haha.. Window shopping at a nearby shopping mall "Hougang Mall" for a while. Stayed home. His bro and girlfriend, Sabrina, came over and had a little dinner treat. Then they went back shortly after that. After writing this blog, realised how uninteresting our day is today. However, the most important thing is "We love each other no matter what".. right hubby?

Happy 2nd Anniversary my love! Hope our 3rd year will be a more interesting and exciting one! So start planning now!!!

Sad to let go

LOVE my flat so much yet I have to let it go. Feels like losing something in my life. Stayed for 3 years with so much memories (don't want to think about the bad ones though). And now I can't believe I'm actually moving out in 3 months time. Gosh.. if it's not for taking up bank loan for this flat, I would stayed for the rest of life. Can't afford to pay such high bank interest rates anymore, it's getting higher and higher. Damn! Cozy, simple and always feel "Home Sweet Home". I really gonna miss this home. Both me and hubby love this home so much. There's a little cosy corner where my X-BOX freak hubby will sit all day and night, playing his favourite shooting game with his online buddies. Where he will fall asleep most of time during gaming, and I have to wake him up middle of the night to ask him to get his butt out of that cosy corner to bed. Now we have to think of where to slot my hubby's gaming cosy corner at our new home. Wish we can have one extra room for him to play his game, but no more room for him.. sorry hubby!

Another best thing about my current home is the living area. I can say almost everyone who's on that black, comfortable sofa will fall asleep. Oh yes, that is one place where my hubby will fall asleep most of the time. One minute his eyes are wide opened and next minute zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

The kitchen is one of the most difficult to maintain. The working top area is white and I have to make sure that cleaniness is tip top. No one are allowed to spit or wash their mouth in the basin. Am I too strict or what? But it's already my habit since young, NO SPITTING PLEASE!! or I'll roar!!


One of my biggest common room is where I spent most of my time. Yeah! It's my home-office. Where my large table, my printers, my filing cabinets, my desktop PC, my laptop and my hubby's laptop, bla, bla, bla, can be found. Should I get an office instead? Hmm.. I think I better stick with home office till I have enough $$ in my bank!!.. hahaha

In 3 months time, Bye bye home! We are gonna miss you!